i've always asked questions. why. how. what. i wanted to know the problem. the cause. the effects. the way to solve it. to prevent it. i felt that this was the way to go in terms of handling the unknown.

once, when i made a mistake and was trying to find out what exaactly went wrong by asking, someone who was very important to me told me that there was no point. just live with it, she said. its already done. nothing you do can solve it. so what if you know what went wrong? just know what you did was wrong and work from there.

like, seriously? you think thats the way to go? i mean. ok i accepted what was said at that point but now. now it just seems all wrong.

i want to know what's wrong if anything. it seems nosey but how better to treat an illness than to know what illness it is? live and let live, they say. show tolerance. makes you a better person. but as we all know, there's a limit to everything. and the fact that the people and/or things that you 'let live' affects the way you 'live' does not help. the fact that people leave or even hate you just for the way you 'live' would and should make you want to change the way that you 'live'.

so. if there's a problem. solve it. if you dont know how to, ask. if you dont understand, ask. dont just 'forget it'.

although the angry girlfriend would expect you to know.

yes. seriously.








and the world spits on me again

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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
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i miss my dad.









and the world spits on me again

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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
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