Monday, May 29, 2006
things have been pretty chaotic. but it aint all bad. i went for my dive trip, for 1. some parts of my life have settled down a fair bit too.
i jus hope tt certain things would be made clear to me. i wanna know wanna know wanna know. darn it.
cant think now. alot has happened but im tired i guess. zzzz.
amen.
and the world spits on me again
i jus hope tt certain things would be made clear to me. i wanna know wanna know wanna know. darn it.
cant think now. alot has happened but im tired i guess. zzzz.
amen.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-4:42 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-4:42 AM-
Monday, May 22, 2006
it came at the wrong time. serious and fun. they clashed. for me at least.
there was a time when i was playful. but not anymore. i wanted something meaningful. i thot i could look forward to something soon. but no. it was not to be.
the person who came up with the chi saying "na de qi, fang de sia" should be clobbered. twice. but i suppose he's right. it isnt anyone's fault tt this has happened. its jus the way things are.
but still.
screw it.
and the world spits on me again
there was a time when i was playful. but not anymore. i wanted something meaningful. i thot i could look forward to something soon. but no. it was not to be.
the person who came up with the chi saying "na de qi, fang de sia" should be clobbered. twice. but i suppose he's right. it isnt anyone's fault tt this has happened. its jus the way things are.
but still.
screw it.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:35 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:35 PM-
blogs are a dangerous thing. it reveals much about a person--his/her past, his/her character.
and the world spits on me again
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:13 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:13 AM-
u gave me the ans. in such an indirect, yet simple way. u gave me the answers to what i needed to know. im not sure if i exactly like what i know now. but one thing's certain.
i jus hope im wrong. prove me wrong? or give me some reason to look at it from a different point of view.
im not happy. once again.
i jus hope im wrong. prove me wrong? or give me some reason to look at it from a different point of view.
im not happy. once again.
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-6:46 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-6:46 AM-
Sunday, May 21, 2006
is it time?? to let go? to move on? to trust? is everything for real? or is this jus another game?
i wan to believe, i wan to know i can trust you. but u make it difficult. sometimes u seem like u dun care, like i dun mean anything.
no matter wad ure thinking. i wan u to know tt im not fooling ard. jus make it easier for me to get the answer. or do u not know either?
im lost.
i wan to believe, i wan to know i can trust you. but u make it difficult. sometimes u seem like u dun care, like i dun mean anything.
no matter wad ure thinking. i wan u to know tt im not fooling ard. jus make it easier for me to get the answer. or do u not know either?
im lost.
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:12 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:12 PM-
Friday, May 19, 2006
questions questions. i really aint certain. make it clear.
the situation now is so uncomfortably familiar. pls dun let it be tt way.
give me an ans.
im insecure.
the situation now is so uncomfortably familiar. pls dun let it be tt way.
give me an ans.
im insecure.
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:41 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:41 AM-
i dun know what u want. u bring me back to those memories. good? perhaps. bad? possibly.
its scary.
pls make it clear to me, some1. any1.
its scary.
pls make it clear to me, some1. any1.
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:14 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:14 AM-
Thursday, May 18, 2006
baby u are my sunshine.
=)
im lovin' it.
=)
im lovin' it.
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-7:07 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-7:07 AM-
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
life's good. at least i think it is. new people are entering my life. i like. =P i jus hope history doesnt repeat itself. i cant take another blow. not now. not yet.
things seem to be goin well though. ah well. time is too short.
looking on the other side of things. i have sch to contend with. projects, projects and more projects. oh. and... more projects. -.- sorry i jus had to do tt.
will life get better?? pls tell me u will make it so.
and the world spits on me again
things seem to be goin well though. ah well. time is too short.
looking on the other side of things. i have sch to contend with. projects, projects and more projects. oh. and... more projects. -.- sorry i jus had to do tt.
will life get better?? pls tell me u will make it so.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:06 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:06 AM-
Monday, May 15, 2006
im not good enough. nvr good enough for you. anyone. everyone. im a walking flaw. im sorry if i offended you. its jus me.
im jus like that. i cant help it. im not who you want me to be. hell, im not who I wanna be. targets, ideals. screw em. screw em all.
im pissed.
im sorry.
and the world spits on me again
im jus like that. i cant help it. im not who you want me to be. hell, im not who I wanna be. targets, ideals. screw em. screw em all.
im pissed.
im sorry.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-10:22 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-10:22 PM-
walao. i take bus from esplanade to amk. then fell aslp. 12+ wake up. im in some ulu place at yio chu kang bus depot!! not interchange. DEPOT. basket. took me dunno how long to get home.
jialat. now my room light oso spoil. keep flickering. on music macham like zouk alr lor. how to do work?? -.-
im tired. in every way possible. really tired. of walking this journey alone.
walk with me.
and the world spits on me again
jialat. now my room light oso spoil. keep flickering. on music macham like zouk alr lor. how to do work?? -.-
im tired. in every way possible. really tired. of walking this journey alone.
walk with me.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:44 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:44 AM-
Saturday, May 13, 2006
my eye is much better now. still excreting alot of funny liquids but. ohwell. looks, feels much better.
BUT. now ive gotta treat my athelete's foot. my right foot. its spreading. and its freaking itchy. dammit.
i got NO TIME to see a doc. til monday comes. or perhaps sunday. sat 9-5 there's diving theory. dun think docs open til tt late. bums.
aaaaaaaaah. rashes on arms. pimple on eye. athelte's foot. wad nex?? hair loss? erectile dysfunction??? CHOY!
nevertheless.
im dying.
and the world spits on me again
BUT. now ive gotta treat my athelete's foot. my right foot. its spreading. and its freaking itchy. dammit.
i got NO TIME to see a doc. til monday comes. or perhaps sunday. sat 9-5 there's diving theory. dun think docs open til tt late. bums.
aaaaaaaaah. rashes on arms. pimple on eye. athelte's foot. wad nex?? hair loss? erectile dysfunction??? CHOY!
nevertheless.
im dying.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:34 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:34 AM-
Thursday, May 11, 2006
wtf man. im fugging half-blind. the diving doctor saw it in his duty to remove the thingy from my eye. at a cost of 80 bucks. zzz.
anw. he injected my eyelid (i have a phobia of needles btw) with anaesthetic and before i knew it. voila. he had burst it and offered to show me the pus. and now my eye is freaking swollen, burning, bleeding and tearing.
due to my unpreparedness. i went home half blind and in the dark i WALKED INTO A POLE. ouch. #%$^#@($%@&*#&
bloody hell.
and the world spits on me again
anw. he injected my eyelid (i have a phobia of needles btw) with anaesthetic and before i knew it. voila. he had burst it and offered to show me the pus. and now my eye is freaking swollen, burning, bleeding and tearing.
due to my unpreparedness. i went home half blind and in the dark i WALKED INTO A POLE. ouch. #%$^#@($%@&*#&
bloody hell.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:15 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:15 PM-
Sunday, May 07, 2006
hmm. havent been blogging. been reminded of the past that day at the divers meeting. wonder if i shld join or not. if shes gonna stick ard, esp for the trips, then its gonna be pretty painful...
anw. im like. sick with sore throat and runny nose + swollen eye + rashes on arm. im dying. retribution? perhaps. -.-
i miss the past.
come back pls.
and the world spits on me again
anw. im like. sick with sore throat and runny nose + swollen eye + rashes on arm. im dying. retribution? perhaps. -.-
i miss the past.
come back pls.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:10 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:10 PM-
Friday, May 05, 2006
hmm. some people dam smart. make use of the human nature of jealousy to get what she wants. and she got what she wanted in the end. zzz. wth. major player siaH.
sch's been so-so otherwise. better than NYP crowd but its a pity every1's so stuck to their OGs. and i dun have 1. siann.
anw. im sick now!!! mus be the late nights and improper meals. zzz. and my right eyelid is freaking swollen. looking for some1 to take care of me!!
girls any1? -.-
and the world spits on me again
sch's been so-so otherwise. better than NYP crowd but its a pity every1's so stuck to their OGs. and i dun have 1. siann.
anw. im sick now!!! mus be the late nights and improper meals. zzz. and my right eyelid is freaking swollen. looking for some1 to take care of me!!
girls any1? -.-
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-12:26 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-12:26 AM-
Monday, May 01, 2006
hmm. im starting to realise my many many imperfections man. as i meet more people and understand more of what they are and can do, i feel so insignificant. so small. so. worthless?
some1 once told me "no one will look down upon you unless u look down upon urself."
it aint exactly true but its meaningful. i mean. u can think the world of urself and people will still look down on you for being haughty. but i guess one shld nvr look down upon oneself. i jus cant help it i guess.
kill me.
and the world spits on me again
some1 once told me "no one will look down upon you unless u look down upon urself."
it aint exactly true but its meaningful. i mean. u can think the world of urself and people will still look down on you for being haughty. but i guess one shld nvr look down upon oneself. i jus cant help it i guess.
kill me.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:56 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:56 PM-