Sunday, December 31, 2006
the last day of the year 2006. time to reflect on the year. think back on the year's achievements and/or what you have failed in. why did you manage to succeed? why did you fail? take these lessons into mind and move into the new year with confidence and a renewed sense of pride.
if not. just follow what 90% of people will be doing and go out and party the night away! get pissed drunk and laugh your way into the new year!
Happy New Year!
hope you didnt fall sick, eh piquid? :p
and the world spits on me again
if not. just follow what 90% of people will be doing and go out and party the night away! get pissed drunk and laugh your way into the new year!
Happy New Year!
hope you didnt fall sick, eh piquid? :p
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-2:59 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-2:59 AM-
Sunday, December 24, 2006
a special dedication on this xmas eve day to the latest anon on the tagboard who somehow sees it as his/her duty to try and censor what is written and posted on this blog. it would seem that posts regarding issues like fate and letting things be and what not somehow does not go down well with our mysterious guest. so dear anon. what is it that you wish to see on one's blog? lets try, shall we?
ahem.
yesterday was a special day! woke up early to go for a casting at sin ming at 12noon. then went to suntec to find nat. dam crowded can! then that stupid debbie say dont feel like coming out then in the end make me wait til 3+ then she appear. shopped around for her sister's present which we found at topshop. then.. .. ..
so dear anon. is that an example of what you expect to see the next time you click the link to this blog? if thats your preferred style and really what you're interested in, then its with much regret that i have to inform you that 1stly, i have no intention of sharing with you, or anyone for that matter, the way my day went and what i bought and whathaveyou. 2ndly, regardless of what you say, the posts here are just reflections brought about by being "emo" and are the outcome of what you get when you see people breaking up due to various reasons and then wondering what went wrong. im just attempting to explain the way things work in my own way.
not happy? dont bother tagging then. just observe silently or dont even bother coming back. for it will always be this way.
and the world spits on me again
ahem.
yesterday was a special day! woke up early to go for a casting at sin ming at 12noon. then went to suntec to find nat. dam crowded can! then that stupid debbie say dont feel like coming out then in the end make me wait til 3+ then she appear. shopped around for her sister's present which we found at topshop. then.. .. ..
so dear anon. is that an example of what you expect to see the next time you click the link to this blog? if thats your preferred style and really what you're interested in, then its with much regret that i have to inform you that 1stly, i have no intention of sharing with you, or anyone for that matter, the way my day went and what i bought and whathaveyou. 2ndly, regardless of what you say, the posts here are just reflections brought about by being "emo" and are the outcome of what you get when you see people breaking up due to various reasons and then wondering what went wrong. im just attempting to explain the way things work in my own way.
not happy? dont bother tagging then. just observe silently or dont even bother coming back. for it will always be this way.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-10:17 AM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-10:17 AM-
Thursday, December 21, 2006
we all know how it is that there's a "honey-moon" period to every relationship. and this comes about due to the fact that this "state" has been something that was desired by either if not both parties.
given the nature of how most relationships start and develop, it is the norm to have the guy taking most of the initiative. the wooing. the sweet-talking. the dating. the romantic dates. and all this for the sole purpose of winning his fair maiden's heart. for those few months, his sole purpose could revolve around that lady. every little action that he does. the decisions that he makes. each breath he takes, it has to do with the girl of his dreams. the object of his burning desire. this is what people call The Chase.
it is said that guys' affection only lasts as long as the chase+a few months. thereafter he moves on and looks to another girl. it is probably true but this is just the way that human beings function.
life is interesting only because there are goals. desires to be fulfilled. ambitions to be achieved. and when it is achieved, suddenly there is a loss to meaning in life. everything just seems to be dull and uninteresting. girls do not scoff. you do this too. in other forms if not this. its just the way the human mind works.
so is it better to just have great ambitions and desires rather than to actually achieve them? what will you find at the end of the road after you have achieved what you wanted? would you want more? would you want something else? would it ever end? where will your happiness be if you are always on the move for something new? would it necessarily be better?
perhaps.
and the world spits on me again
given the nature of how most relationships start and develop, it is the norm to have the guy taking most of the initiative. the wooing. the sweet-talking. the dating. the romantic dates. and all this for the sole purpose of winning his fair maiden's heart. for those few months, his sole purpose could revolve around that lady. every little action that he does. the decisions that he makes. each breath he takes, it has to do with the girl of his dreams. the object of his burning desire. this is what people call The Chase.
it is said that guys' affection only lasts as long as the chase+a few months. thereafter he moves on and looks to another girl. it is probably true but this is just the way that human beings function.
life is interesting only because there are goals. desires to be fulfilled. ambitions to be achieved. and when it is achieved, suddenly there is a loss to meaning in life. everything just seems to be dull and uninteresting. girls do not scoff. you do this too. in other forms if not this. its just the way the human mind works.
so is it better to just have great ambitions and desires rather than to actually achieve them? what will you find at the end of the road after you have achieved what you wanted? would you want more? would you want something else? would it ever end? where will your happiness be if you are always on the move for something new? would it necessarily be better?
perhaps.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-7:03 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-7:03 PM-
Monday, December 18, 2006
to feel for someone and to actually strive to make that someone happy. to build a mutual understanding. to make dreams come true. where have all these instincts run off to? something was lost in the last emotional disaster that occurred.
in fact. more than just something. a whole part of life was taken and buried deep in some mystical abyss of hatred and darkness, just waiting to be dug out and its true glory uncovered once again. numerous attempts to reach it have failed and yet the attempts continue.
anger and pain aside, the yearning to feel the same way all those months and years ago struggles to break through and resurface.
what was it like to love? what was it like to feel for a person and take pleasure in just that person's happiness or even his/her mere appearance? what was it like to make passes? to dangerously flirt with the possibility that it might all work out?
no it has not been forgotten. vague though it is, it is still remembered. and the feeling thoroughly savoured. the desire burns. the heart was weak. but not anymore. not if the possibility of happiness hangs loose on the balance.
My Affection. Steadfast. Authentic.
i wish upon the rain.
and the world spits on me again
in fact. more than just something. a whole part of life was taken and buried deep in some mystical abyss of hatred and darkness, just waiting to be dug out and its true glory uncovered once again. numerous attempts to reach it have failed and yet the attempts continue.
anger and pain aside, the yearning to feel the same way all those months and years ago struggles to break through and resurface.
what was it like to love? what was it like to feel for a person and take pleasure in just that person's happiness or even his/her mere appearance? what was it like to make passes? to dangerously flirt with the possibility that it might all work out?
no it has not been forgotten. vague though it is, it is still remembered. and the feeling thoroughly savoured. the desire burns. the heart was weak. but not anymore. not if the possibility of happiness hangs loose on the balance.
My Affection. Steadfast. Authentic.
i wish upon the rain.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-6:24 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-6:24 PM-
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
giving up. the sign that there is lost of hope. that it is beyond what can be done. a sign of weakness. of giving into pressures easily. but is it really?
look at it from an objective point of view. its undeniable that to give up, or rather, to let go of certain issues in life may very well be seen as a weakness on that individual's part. but it has to be understood that it also takes immense courage and much thinking to actually admit that one has reached that stage of despair.
to find the courage to let go of past experiences and hurts would grant you access to a whole new chapter in life. it effectively wraps up on the ugly past and presents fresh pages for your life's story to be continued.
move on if you think its time. dont get stuck in that same chapter and refuse to move on even though you know its time.
dont be afraid. it wont be a dull day.
and the world spits on me again
look at it from an objective point of view. its undeniable that to give up, or rather, to let go of certain issues in life may very well be seen as a weakness on that individual's part. but it has to be understood that it also takes immense courage and much thinking to actually admit that one has reached that stage of despair.
to find the courage to let go of past experiences and hurts would grant you access to a whole new chapter in life. it effectively wraps up on the ugly past and presents fresh pages for your life's story to be continued.
move on if you think its time. dont get stuck in that same chapter and refuse to move on even though you know its time.
dont be afraid. it wont be a dull day.
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:26 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:26 PM-