many things have happened recently. many new friends, new people. i look forward to a new life tts definite.

but. im having some problems with commitment. esp with people. i fear. i fear the loss that would be felt when its all over. i fear the pain all over again. i guess its also bcos of the fact tt i havent exactly found THE ONE for me. or perhaps more time is needed. i dun know.

all i know is tt im having probs with the idea of bein tied down to any1 rite now. u could say tt i dun like the person enough, and i wun rebutt tt. but then again. in some cases. its jus so not happening the way i want it.

its jus kinda weird tt 1 person can have so much impact on another person's life. the pain, the misery tt can be caused. the irrepairable damage.

fate is a funny thing.










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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-8:53 AM-

ha. so long nvr blog alr. jus cant be bothered man. ohwell. lets jus summarize the past few weeks up yea?

hols have been fun. vball camp-met new pple, kena sunburn, kena chua tio by lady in white(s). slacking ard. watching world cup. laughing at Serbia and Trinidad. cheering for Brazil.

and now. all the fun's over. back to sch. haii.











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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:27 PM-

im drowning in boredom, in my mini kingdom, living in my fantasy of stardom, building up a dukedom, dreaming of officialdom.

ni DOM le ma?

=.=











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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-2:56 PM-

im happy. im a happy happy kid. though i dun know if it will last for long. i mean. well ok there're exams to contend with now, so i cant be THAT happy. like, i jus flunked my INFA(accounting) test.. ZzZZZzZZzZzz...

but certain developments in life have made me hopeful. hopeful tt a better life is to come. -prays-

God lend me ur power. on this day, show me THE OMEN pls!!!

=.=











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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:21 PM-

u cant get everything u want. but does that mean that u cant desire it? or does that want work against wad is better for you and make you do stupid things? make stupid choices and decisions?

wadever it is. dun let it control you. dun let it manifest and become an epitome of ur greed and desires. dun. jus dun. control urself. think. be rational.

but i still desire.










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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:58 AM-

thank you. ( you may know who u are) thank you for freeing me from that emotional prison. for giving me the key back to freedom.

things are pretty complicated. or rather, they were rather complicated and u may not understand whats goin on. its hard to explain. jus know tt im glad for wad has happened. it has lifted a burden off my back.

phew.

everything's intact.










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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:38 PM-

what the hell am i doing. why am i kidding myself. that miracle that i hope for will never happen. its better to jus forget it.

face it. with what i have to offer, not many people would actually go for it. in fact, i have my answer already. what's gonna happen nex is jus a matter of how i handle it. but at least my path and choice is now clear to me.

im sorry.










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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-1:52 AM-

so many 1-year plus couples are breaking up. hmm. love at this age jus doesnt seem to last, does it? or perhaps its jus an issue of staying committed??

i want, yet i do not want. i hope, yet i do not hope.

profound? i dun really know wad im talking bout actually. its jus a sign of how confused and scared i am of certain things.

~beep!~











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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:25 AM-

amelia
audrey
brianna
cindy
clan
dixon
jezreel
lav
mad
rene
shiying
sokwai
xiufang
yeeling