Sunday, November 26, 2006
letting go. hard as it seems, we all have to learn to do so. nothing could possibly be gained from holding onto sad memories. failures, heartbreak. we all experience either if not both of these situations from time to time. over the years, such experiences would amalgamate into a huge mine of memories and emotions. and if not handled properly, life thereafter could very well be affected.
ever since the bad breakup in jan earlier this year, it has been difficult to swallow another love-pill. fear is abound. comparisons are made, calculations performed. despite having very good feelings for those people, the fear that it would not be as good as what was once a very happy relationship kept me bound to the "single" shelf, and perhaps breaking a couple of hearts along the way.
its not that there isnt anyone whom is better. its that they arent available or that things just dont work out. and when things dont work out, a vicious cycle begins. self-belief is thrown into the pits. depression sinks in. irritability. people get pissed. more irritability. and on it goes. and this is how it has been. on and off, on and off. never able to escape from that position, a mental war ensues. a fight between the present and the past.
then. yesterday. a friend said: "i wont n i dont know if it'll ever be as good. but if u dont try, u wont know. if u think its right, just try. or u might regret."
thinking about it for the better part of the night and most part of the morning, a conclusion was arrived at. it doesnt make sense to pull down the present along with the outcome of the past. as they say, let bygones be bygones. forgive but dont forget. forgive the person who hurt you. forgive yourself for hurting others. forgive those who hurt your loved ones. but never forget. let go of the hatred. but remember the pain and take it as a lesson learnt. dont let your sad experiences go to waste. make sure something is gained from it.
be bold. let go of your past.
dull?
and the world spits on me again
ever since the bad breakup in jan earlier this year, it has been difficult to swallow another love-pill. fear is abound. comparisons are made, calculations performed. despite having very good feelings for those people, the fear that it would not be as good as what was once a very happy relationship kept me bound to the "single" shelf, and perhaps breaking a couple of hearts along the way.
its not that there isnt anyone whom is better. its that they arent available or that things just dont work out. and when things dont work out, a vicious cycle begins. self-belief is thrown into the pits. depression sinks in. irritability. people get pissed. more irritability. and on it goes. and this is how it has been. on and off, on and off. never able to escape from that position, a mental war ensues. a fight between the present and the past.
then. yesterday. a friend said: "i wont n i dont know if it'll ever be as good. but if u dont try, u wont know. if u think its right, just try. or u might regret."
thinking about it for the better part of the night and most part of the morning, a conclusion was arrived at. it doesnt make sense to pull down the present along with the outcome of the past. as they say, let bygones be bygones. forgive but dont forget. forgive the person who hurt you. forgive yourself for hurting others. forgive those who hurt your loved ones. but never forget. let go of the hatred. but remember the pain and take it as a lesson learnt. dont let your sad experiences go to waste. make sure something is gained from it.
be bold. let go of your past.
dull?
and the world spits on me again
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THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:18 PM-
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:18 PM-