im falling. and im afraid. afraid of what's gonna happen. or even what may not happen. its jus scary. i fear the whole thing repeating itself all over again. the loss and pain. which is y im so reluctant.

give me a reason not to fear.

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-5:00 PM-

heh. i hate it when girls always say tt guys suck. girls are better. tts the reason for turning les. i really hate it. not cos they turned les but the reason they say/said it.

i mean. jus cos some girls get dumped or cheated upon doesnt mean tt every guy out there is an a-hole. tts simply committing an act of fallacy. a fallacy of composition. in econs terms tt is. it refers to the train of thought tt jus cos one or more guy(s) u know is a bastard, all guys are bastards. like. wtf? as if girls are all angels.

look ard. girls dump pple and break hearts too. and im not only talking about girls dumping guys. girls dumping girls are on e rise. face it. it aint a matter of whether u have a penis. its jus human nature. its jus how relationships work. matters of the heart. the outcome tt u get when u jump into things without realising the commitments tt come along.

ive only been in poly 4 months and counting and wad do i see? among all my friends, the heterosexual couples are goin strong. on the other hand, i have seen the breakdown of 3 lesbian couples. sorry i dun have any gay couple friends. but yea. this may not be the best of examples. but wad im trying to say is tt it aint a matter of the gender. its human nature.

be les or bi. i dun care. jus dun push the blame to GUYS as a whole. u bitches.

but pls dun take this post to heart. if u dun agree then fine. im jus fed-up with hearing "guys suck. they're all bastards."

as if girls are angels. bungs for tt matter.

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-11:36 PM-

sometimes its better to think through what u are goin to say or tell some pple.

dun think any of u would know what im referring to. but yea. think before u speak. it could cause some worry and uneasiness sometimes, the things u say.

simply put, im sorry.

and i know im forgiven.

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:28 AM-

girl to security uncle at zebra crossing: uncle take care ok? got alot of cars. -smiles-
security uncle: stupid girl. walk faster la!

ROFL. joke of e month. nice of e girl though aint it?

anw. exams are up. and there's still alot alot to be done. die la. hope i can clear this sem. zzz.

helpppp.

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-3:18 PM-

been some time since i last blogged. well ok its only been 5 days. obviously. but in these 5 days. much has happened. ive met lotsa new people. new personalities. learnt new stuff. opened my eyes a lil more to e big world that it is out there.

im glad i came to poly. i mean. not tt i dun regret not studying hard in jc but. poly--NGEE ANN POLY--has really let me grow in so many ways. and its only been one sem. magical. not tt im doin fantastic in studies or wadever. but. its jus amazing how much a person can grow in a stipulated environment. then again. its all about one's attitude. i see so many people in e same place as me, but yet, they fail to find meaning in sch, in life. and its such a pity really.

i wonder what the nex 5 sems will hold in store for me. wad will it be dear NP? wad do u have for me?

bring it on.









and the world spits on me again

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-12:45 AM-

wad's happening? -looks around- it aint all that bad i would say. there are new people in my life, events to look forward to, great friends. the works.

but 1 thing is still left hollow. empty. the emotional vacuum. yes i am one of those people who actually indulges in that aspect of life. i find it more comforting, more meaningful, to lead a life shared with tt special some1. of cos this does not mean that jus any1 can take this place. it has to be some1 i share a special sth with.

ur beautiful.










and the world spits on me again

__________________________________
THE DARKER SIDE OF ME;
-9:56 AM-

amelia
audrey
brianna
cindy
clan
dixon
jezreel
lav
mad
rene
shiying
sokwai
xiufang
yeeling