what the hell am i doing. why am i kidding myself. that miracle that i hope for will never happen. its better to jus forget it.
face it. with what i have to offer, not many people would actually go for it. in fact, i have my answer already. what's gonna happen nex is jus a matter of how i handle it. but at least my path and choice is now clear to me.
im sorry.
and the world spits on me again